Never Alone

Spoiler: This probably won't be funny unless unintentionally

Because I hold to the traditional Judeo-Christian beliefs, it would be incongruent  to say that I am the reincarnation of someone who lived years ago. Even more far fetched is that I would be the reincarnation of two fictional book characters who were said to have "lived" at the same time. However, my daily life seems to want to confirm this suspicion with severity. I am a distinct mixture of Anne Shirley who had a propensity for getting into scrapes and Jo March who was awkward, strong willed and always managed to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. (With the best of intentions bless her heart!)

There is hope for me however, I am not yet fully confirmed to barbarianism or anti-socialism. As Louisa May Alcott (my past life if ever I had one) would say, I am a very real girl. Jo March and Anne Shirley turned out ok in the end so I am hopeful!

The thing I love most about being alone is the time I have to reflect on the days "rights" and "wrongs." Where most men are said to live "lives of quiet desperation," I have a distinct knack for living life "Wide Open." In the openness comes the growing. Sometimes we need the alone-ness to grow. When we are constantly surrounded by others, the daily lessons that come get drowned out by the noise around us.

Sometimes though, the "adventure" of alone-ness isn't quite fun. But, you see, I am only playing at being alone and even in the quiet of alone-ness, I am never lonely. I have the luxury of saying "forget this" and going where the home lights are on, my husband opens the door with a perfect hug and my dog is happy to see me. Or I can pick up the phone and call one of many friends who get to see me fully and love me just as fully. So I am never alone, not really. And even when I am by myself, with me always is the friend that Paul says one day we will know fully, even as we are fully known. So I am never alone.

Someone said that the deepest desire of most people IS to be known fully and to be accepted anyway. In that sense, my life is pretty full. 


My favorite scripture is Ecclesiates 3v11 "For he has made everything beautiful in it's time, he has placed eternity in the human heart and even still they can not see fully the scope of what God has planned."


In a big way, it relates to all creation. In a small way, I hope it to be true for me. Life is journey of coming and going, of mistakes and triumphs (C.S. Lewis says sometimes the highest highs come with the lowest lows) and of constant learning. I dearly love to learn (and laugh, so add Elizabeth Bennett to my reincarnation list!).

Adventures of being alone this week:
1. Reflecting on how to grow from the mistakes I made this week and remembering the things I managed to do right as well ( I always celebrate the small things! "Did I brush my teeth? Did I take my pill? Did I hang up my towel? Yes? Go MEEE!!)
2. I felt something on my shoulder  earlier and I scratched it and it was HALF of a small worm ( I had been walking through woods) so the rest of the night will be spent wondering what happened to the other half!!

A good day!